It hasn't been a very good year

I'm on the verge of turning 30, and by the looks of my previous post, I haven't been happy.

I hope the rest of the year can be salvaged.

15 months

today marks the 15 month anniversary.

I love him, but I think he loves drugs more

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I have never felt so alone, severely depressed, and felt like I've hit an all time low.

Emptiness is consuming me and it's hard to go on

Lost

Not the show, unfortunately.

I've found myself in quite a predicament and cannot turn to anyone for help, a kind ear.

I am lost.

Indifferent

My boyfriend has blocked me from adding him on Facebook. His reason being I hide him from my life, FB is another part of him that he'd rather not have me involved.

I'm just a bit confused, really. Why have your status as "single" on this silly little social networking site, and claim to be my boyfriend? It's rude

Oh and I am quite envious of couples who leave each other messages on FB. Hell, I know it's cheesy, but so what?

Self-realization

Lately, I've realized that I need self-realization. Wow, that even sounded silly. How does one realize what they're lacking/needing? Maybe have another person, say a loved one, point it out? Or maybe come to terms that after 29 years on this planet, it's about damn time.

I came home today and broke down. I didn't feel welcomed. Yes, even my beautiful dog, Naomi, didn't feel like her happy usual self when she greets me at the door. Perhaps I am far disconnected than I had imagined.

Baby steps, Rosie. Baby steps.

blogging on an iPhone is no easy task

I'll try anyway.

My left ear won't stop ringing. J cracked his nicotine gum in my ear last night.

Who, you may ask yourself dear reader, is J? I was just reading some old entries, and found one the day before I met Jimi, saying that I was a sad girl. The following day, Feb 2nd, I met him. 9months later, this man that I didn't think would still be talking to, or be associated with, is luckily in my life. In a short period of time I'm surprised to have fallen in love with him. An event that I thought would happen again.

I hope to update with positive entries. . .

Well, I'm getting my hair done as I finish this and my scalp is itchy!